Im really upset what do i do?

hm. it seems like you are easily persuaded by guys to do ual things. Wait till you find a loving relationship for all of that stuff.. it will mean alot more to you, and you will know that it is right and not have to ask yourself " i wonder if this is ok to be doing ." I think you should definately stand up for yourself, tell someone about being d, and only do what you are comfortable with. Chances are, if you have to question if its right or not, then its not something that you should be doing.